Why

Why do I still keep trying?
Why does she still mean so much to me?
Why do I still feel so deeply for her?
Why is she the only thing that brings meaning to my life?
Why does she insist on breaking my heart so?
Why has "for now" stopped being "for now"?
Why am I simply, irrefutably, not good enough?
Why does life feel..empty..without her?
Why, after all this time, has she chosen to give up on me?
Why do I still hold on?
Why do I love her so?
Why?