One step forward, two steps back

We're back to being normal friends again.
Don't think there are many things I've regreted more than suggesting this.
But it's probably better, till she sorts her own feelings out.
So we're "just friends" for the next two weeks.
It's really hard.
I know it's ridiculous, but it feels like break-up all over again.
And we weren't even officially together yet.
It also came as a surprise that she's still thinking about the orginal question.
I don't know why, but I guess I'd hoped we would be a little past that.
So, right now, it feels like waiting for exam results.
Except a lot worse.
I have an ominous feeling I'm going to do badly on this one.
But I will be patient.
I will wait.
And I will accpet the outcome.
I like her that much.