All we have to do is fight

I was thinking of asking her out for lunch, but she was supposed to have lunch with her family. But she told him she could meet him for lunch, and have dinner with her family instead. I'm just being stupid, of course, but it makes me wonder what would have happened had I actually asked her for lunch earlier.

Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. Because her feelings for him far outwiegh her feelings for me. As they should, I suppose. At times it really feels like an uphill battle, against an opponent who's faster, smarter and has more resources than I do. But as Stover once wrote, "We don't have to win; all we have to do is fight". SO I will. Because I could never forgive myself if I didn't.

A friend, who knows her better than I do, thinks that it's a matter of habit; she's too used to being with him. I honestly don't know. All I know is I like her, and while she may like me, she still likes him more. If this was dependent only on how strongly she feels for either of us, I would probably have lost long ago. Sometimes I wonder whether it may be better that way, since she has stronger feelings for him.

All I can do is be grateful for this chance.
And remember that all I have to do is fight.