Sincerity and Perserverance

That's the motto of my Primary School. I guess I find it particularly apt in this current situation.

I've been feeling quite lost, lately; my whole mind seems to have been in a jumble. At ties, I don't even know what I'm thinking, or I'm lost between the conflicting thoughts in my head. I lost my way.

But it's all clearer now.

Stover once wrote that there are so many things in life we don't know, that we cannot and will not know. But we don't have to know; all we have to do is decide.

This has been a core component of my personal philosophy for so long, I have no idea how I cold ever have forgotten it.

So here's what I've decided:

I've decided that I don't have to care what she chooses to do with him during this period of time. It really isn't my business, nor should it be, so why get affected by it?

I've decided that all I have to do is concentrate on how I play the game. If she wants us to be friends, then be the best friend possible; if she shows further signs, reciprocate. But respect the rules she has laid down.

She asked me what I would do if she decided not to choose either of us. So I've also decided that unless she specifically doesn't want to have anything else to do with me anymore, I will push on. We've come this far, how can I give up now?

And at the end of the day, may she be moved by Sincerity and Perserverance.

The things you learn in Primary School.