Outmaneuvered. Again.

Sometimes I just feel like crying.

I was thinking of getting her flowers tomorrow, since I haven't gotten her any since graduation. He got her a really nice bouquet today. Why am I constantly one step behind?

The worst part is I know how easily moved she is by gestures such as these. At times like this, I'm constantly reminded how much better he knows her than I do. I know she likes receiving little gifts, so I make the effort to get her stuff I think she'll like when I see them. But he knows it's the flowers that are gonna score the points. He seems to know which buttons to push, and I don't.

I really feel at a loss sometimes.
I need puta to slap some sense into me.

Guess I'll just need to do better.